This is another installment in the “Emily doesn’t really have a theme to her blog right now but that’s OK” series. In related news, I am enjoying my relaxed hold on blogging. Treating this space more like the diary I originally intended it to be feels right. I am, however, working on a piece on one of my favorite books from when I was a kid. It should be a bit more topical. I’m excited! Really!
So the jobs. B and I have been waffling over whether our decision to quit his job and move this year is still a good idea. And for today, at least, it is. A deal is in the works to sell off our portion of some family real estate. The idea is not to live off the money that we would gain from selling it but instead to put it towards helping B’s mom purchase her home, which we would eventually inherit outright. This is a long term plan and I’m not entirely sure how it fits into our present situation, but it all seems to be related in that even if he can’t find a teaching job for the Fall right away, we would at least have a place to live while he continues to search. All will be OK. I’m learning that. Granted, I’m learning it by waking several times in the night and worrying for good measure. But the panic attacks are few and far between.
I was reading a post that Lisa wrote recently about the new year. She was talking about the things that she wanted to leave behind in 2012. (Side note: I loved 2012 because it was The Year of C but I could do without everything else. The Sandy Hook tragedy alone cancelled out any positive feeling I could have mustered for the year. I’m still sick when I think about it, especially since the NRA is being so predictably horrible in their response.) Anyhoo, Lisa is basically my Blogga Mama and I am going to be sticking by her side as she confronts a host of challenges this year. Her post made me think about the New Years post I wrote at the beginning of last year, and how my values and mindset have changed. As I read it back, I see a pregnant woman who has no idea of all that is coming. I’m glad that 2012 was a year of personal growth for me. I suspect that 2013 will be the same, and while I fear the challenges that are coming, I relish the opportunity to give my family the best of me. I can only become that person by putting myself through the fire and refusing to worry about things that are so transitory.
So if you pray, say one for us. It doesn’t have to be long or ornate. I don’t think God minds if your words aren’t all King Jamesian. There’s one job in particular that I’m thinking specifically about that may or may not make B into the coworker of one of my favorite people on The WordPress. So for the posts that would come out of that situation alone, keep us in your hearts.
The Waiting 
I’ll make sure to include you guys in my dailies. Hope everything works out for you.
Thanks, BroJo. Very appreciated.
I love that you call him that, because I call him that but didn’t know you called him that which means were are psychically connected.
Naturally, we are! I think on some primitive level we all know to call Jon BroJo.
Best of luck to you all this year. Let us all know what you need help with. I’ve already had people offer me help for my 2013 goals and I’m not as nice as you. Be open and others may know ways to solve your problems.
Very true words. The world is a lot more caring and compassionate than it seems sometimes.
I’m sure this year will hold some surprises for you and who knows what will happen, but I really do think that you end up where you’re meant to end up. (this has happened to me recently dapite me resisting for 18 months!) On a side note – I hope you’re talking about writing about “young adult” books – which were very near and dear to my heart for at least, oh, 20 years.
Hehehe…the book I have in mind isn’t exact young adult, but it’s a good one. I think it was meant for all ages.
I love best all the posts where you can just say what you want to say. Because I love you and anything you might possibly want to say. XOXOXO and prayers and fingers crossed for you guys!
You are the best. I love you!
Praying for you all.
Thank you. We really appreciate it.
Lol! For you, Emily, I will do a full blown King Jamesian prayer. It sounds like things are starting to brew, as I knew they would. (It’s hard to keep a good family down.) I like the plans.
I was also thinking about your book. You know I think you’re uber talented and that your cup runneth over in the writing department. Well, what about focusing on writing a children’s book? If anyone could and should write one, it’s you. Also, screenplays don’t take that long to write. Maybe I could pass something along – I happen to know some peeps. Anyway, those are little sidebar projects that could keep your creative juices flowing.
I love all the other news. I’m going to pray so much that God’s gonna tell me to cool my jets. :)
I love you to pieces!!
Lisa
xoxo
You are the best! The book has been placed on the sideburner for now. I think I am going to wait for C to get a bit older to pick it up again. She is turning out to be a rather hands-on child (that’s my nice way of saying that her personality doesn’t seem very independent and that she demands ALL my attention when she’s awake.) But a children’s book is something my husband and I have mused over doing for some time now. We have a whole menagerie of characters that we’ve joked about for years. Who knows? Maybe we’re the next Stan and Jan Berenstine and we don’t even know it yet!
Thank you for your prayers. They mean a lot.
Good luck! I’m sure everything will work out splendidly.
I certainly hope so! Thanks!
So does that make you my adopted blog sister? I’ve always wanted a sister :D
But I will definitely say a little prayer for you and your clan. It’s hard to know what to do and what big choices to make. Hopefully our little prayers will make your minds clear and give you good energy to work with for a new year.
Some times the unorganized, diary-type posts are the best ones!
I think that definitely makes you my adopted blog sister and C’s cool aunt. What does that make Tim? LOL.
Thank you for your prayers. They do help clear my mind and make me realize that there is some order in all this chaos.
Best for the new year & navigating tough decisions. Here is a rather elaborate prayer that someone sent me last year and I just love it. For every day. It’s privately posted, but this link should work… http://wp.me/pLPzj-RF
Unfortunately I couldn’t get the link to work, but if you’d like to email it to me at thewaitingblog@gmail.com I’d love to read it! Thanks, Laura!
Emily,
I like this post. I like the feel of it — diary or otherwise — and I like that it’s about what’s going on. I hope the job(s) work out. I am putting my intention on having things work out for you guys as you need them to right now. Sounds like other things are also falling into place nicely — just some timing and decisions to be made. An exciting start to the year.
Thank you so much for your kind words. When I feel like I don’t have a lot of control in my life, I like to feel as though I have control over what I’m saying here. Your encouragement is highly appreciated! ;D
I’ll have a talk wtih the Big Guy upstairs… keep positive!
You are the best. Thanks, Audra!
Hey, I didn’t know B was thinking of applying for a therapy job in my department ;)
The unknown is always really freaking scary, but I also know (just as you do) that you’ll all be ok. You’re in my thoughts.
I know, right?! Surprise! Put in a good word for him with your boss.
Postive thoughts radiating out….
I appreciate all of them. Thanks, Denise.
Emily, sounds as if you and your family have some decisions to make and that’s always tough. I know you’re considering moving back to a place you and I know well. I miss it now that I back here! New jobs, moving, new baby — all major things and all part of the sweet messiness of life. I wish you well and I’m sending good thoughts and prayers your way. Just keep repeating to yourself: Everything is going to be alright, everything is going to be alright….
It will.
“Sweet messiness of life.” That is the most perfect way to describe it. It’s hard but it’s all so, so worth it in the long run. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers, Brig. They mean a lot.
I’ll definitely keep you in my prayers.
Thank you, Sandee! ;D
Not a pray-er, but god occasionally stops by my card game every so often. I’ll throw in a good word for you.
Before I berate him for finishing the nachos.
Again.
(God loves his chili and cheese over chips!)
Can’t wait to hear of your successes over the year!
I always had a feeling that God was guilty of bogarting the good stuff. I mean, He did give Jesus the ability to turn water into wine. He has quite the palate. Thanks, Guap!
I remember a very similar clueless and pregnant woman a few years ago, and I’m still just as clueless. Personal growth only seems to come with more things to learn from and grow on. I think that’s the way it’s supposed to be. The right path will happen for you when it does, they always do. I like to try to maintain an always slightly uncomfortable state so I always have something to work for. :)
There is so, so, SO much truth to what you’re saying here! We should always be a little uneasy and never entirely comfortable because in the end we will appreciate all that we were able to accomplish and overcome. Cluelessness just means that we aren’t quite done cooking yet.
Nice work, Emily! Playing it fast and loose really agrees with you!
Thanks, Hook! It feels really good.
Good luck to you. It’s hard to face so many transitions and choices but you seem to have an optimistic outlook :)
I am trying to be optimistic. I’ve tried the pessimism route and it never really worked for me. I always ended up eating way too many Cheetos, which in itself is not really a problem until I stained by fingers orange.
Especially problematic under the fingernails…
Sounds to me like a great plan.
I am digging the diary style blog :)
Hehehe it’s a bit more like yours ;D
Yes well, maybe I am a little biased.
Just when I think I have the corner on how to think about the NRA and other controversies, God goes and shoves me out of the box I created for Him. Hmph. Of all the noive. I love how you brace yourself for change. May we all be like Weenie and Skipperdee who embraced the joi de vivre.
I think you know what book I was referring to above. I am in the “research” phase of that post and it is putting me in an extremely happy place.
God has this wonderful, perfect way of keeping us on our toes. I talk about having no theme to my blog, but in reality I that THAT’S the theme. Xxoo
I’ve got all my fingers and toes crossed. Which I can do, because of my big sasquatchian monkey feet. As a great man once said, “I’m pulling for you. We’re all in this together. Keep your stick on the ice.”
Is that from Mighty Ducks? Because Gordon Bombay was a great man, for sure.
Red Green. Different great man. It’s a Canadian brand of greatness.
I pray ~~~
You are my favorite and I love you.
Sending prayers for sure mama! I’m about to embark on a totally new job-journey myself that will pay a lot less than what I’m making now but in the end make me and our family happier. I’m still at my old job so I will share all the details soon but I ramble to say I share your waking with worry and panic attack moments. You rock and I love reading about your awesome little fam! Can’t wait to see what is in store!
*ps – I kind of feel the same about 2012. I’m thankful Keelin made it to the world JUST before the close of 2011 because 2012 kind of sucked outside of being with her. too many national and personal tragedies for me to handle. Praying 2013 makes up for all the loss and heartache.
For some reason I completely missed that you were still working! Girl, you have so much on your plate and I completely admire how graceful you are through all that you do. My prayers are with you too as you go through some similar transitions. To a brighter 2013!
WOOT!
it really will be ok, but until it IS ok, it will feel like a never ending pile of worry….or is that just me?
I have great faith that all will be well on your end, and I will be crossing fingers for y’all. xo
It’s not just you. I think that’s the nature of the beast; you have to worry your hair gray before amazing things happen. To me, though, it’s worth it because then at least you can reflect on where you came from. Thanks, Sara.
I don’t pray, but I will think positive thoughts for you, B and of course Wee C. I hope that 2013 holds many wonderful things for the three of you. Do write that book Emily! You have a wonderful way with words.
Best of luck, of course I’ll be thinking about you guys! And what’s life without a little adventure once in a while?